I'm thinking of maybe keeping a journal for those times when I need to tell my mom something, that way at least I am getting it out! I can imagine it's intense for you now, even after 4 years. Time really doesn't change feelings like that much anyway.

I'm pleased you are getting things set up for relocating! It's going to be both fun and terrifying, but it's the right thing to do -- for both of us! I'll be thinking of you, my dear.