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Weekly update
Dec. 18th, 2007 09:29 pmI wonder what I was so busy doing that I didn't update this past week?
Maybe it was the shoveling of snow -- we had our fair share, some of which was too heavy and icy for the snow blower so it had to shoveled the old fashioned way.
Maybe it was making a thousand trips to the mall because I kept forgetting something that was on my Christmas shopping list.
Maybe it was the extra duties at church this week that didn't seem like much until I realized I was out more nights than usual.
Maybe it was making Christmas cookies (and eating them), and decorating the tree -- it looks lovely, by the way! I shall have to write a post about it with some pictures. We have some fun ornaments I want to tell you all about.
Or maybe it was me freaking out because I have procrastinated too many times on some things and had so much on my mind that I woke up afraid, and was feeling like a failure, and didn't want to tell anyone about it. ;-) This in spite of the fact that I actually succeeded in doing Christmas cards this yea, which is an accomplishment to be proud of!
I guess it was probably all those things. Fortunately, the freaking out part only lasted a short time, and happened over the weekend, and also got better then, too. But it did happen, and so I have some things to do to make sure it doesn't happen again. To that end, I have started rereading a book which I read ages ago, but am enjoying again -- Ordering Your Private World by Gordon McDonald.
In the beginning of the book, he quotes Anne Morrow Lindberg, the wife of Charles Lindberg, the aviator. She was very much in the public eye and under pressure in her public life, and yet guarded her private world very carefully :
I think that's a lovely way of describing exactly what I have been hoping to establish in my own life. I do believe I have managed it at times in the past, but somewhere along the line, I misplaced that inner grace and I want to find it again. :-)
To give myself a head start on that, I'm taking a day off the computer tomorrow -- and that means a real day off, where I don't even turn it on! Hubby is going to turn off the tv and the radio as well, so it will be a lovely quiet day. That will give me a chance to do some thinking and reading and writing and praying without distraction. We used to do this once a week, and got away from it, but it's such a helpful time for reordering one's life, I think I really have to make it a habit again.
I'll see you all on Thursday!
Maybe it was the shoveling of snow -- we had our fair share, some of which was too heavy and icy for the snow blower so it had to shoveled the old fashioned way.
Maybe it was making a thousand trips to the mall because I kept forgetting something that was on my Christmas shopping list.
Maybe it was the extra duties at church this week that didn't seem like much until I realized I was out more nights than usual.
Maybe it was making Christmas cookies (and eating them), and decorating the tree -- it looks lovely, by the way! I shall have to write a post about it with some pictures. We have some fun ornaments I want to tell you all about.
Or maybe it was me freaking out because I have procrastinated too many times on some things and had so much on my mind that I woke up afraid, and was feeling like a failure, and didn't want to tell anyone about it. ;-) This in spite of the fact that I actually succeeded in doing Christmas cards this yea, which is an accomplishment to be proud of!
I guess it was probably all those things. Fortunately, the freaking out part only lasted a short time, and happened over the weekend, and also got better then, too. But it did happen, and so I have some things to do to make sure it doesn't happen again. To that end, I have started rereading a book which I read ages ago, but am enjoying again -- Ordering Your Private World by Gordon McDonald.
In the beginning of the book, he quotes Anne Morrow Lindberg, the wife of Charles Lindberg, the aviator. She was very much in the public eye and under pressure in her public life, and yet guarded her private world very carefully :
"I want first of all... to be at peace with myself. I want a singleness of eye, a purity of intention, a central core to my life that will enable me to carry out these obligations and activities as well as I can. I want, in fact -- to borrow from the language of the saints -- to live "in grace" as much of the time as possible. I am not using this term in a strictly theological sense. By grace I mean an inner harmony, essentially spiritual, which can be translated into outward harmony... I would like to achieve a state of inner spiritual grace from which I could function and give as I was meant to in the eye of God." -- The Gift From the Sea
I think that's a lovely way of describing exactly what I have been hoping to establish in my own life. I do believe I have managed it at times in the past, but somewhere along the line, I misplaced that inner grace and I want to find it again. :-)
To give myself a head start on that, I'm taking a day off the computer tomorrow -- and that means a real day off, where I don't even turn it on! Hubby is going to turn off the tv and the radio as well, so it will be a lovely quiet day. That will give me a chance to do some thinking and reading and writing and praying without distraction. We used to do this once a week, and got away from it, but it's such a helpful time for reordering one's life, I think I really have to make it a habit again.
I'll see you all on Thursday!
