Motivated

[linaewen]

The last day or two I have had this interesting feeling of motivation.  It's exciting, actually.  Not sure what was up with me before, but I was feeling pretty unmotivated in general -- or motivated in the wrong ways to apply myself to what needed doing, and so I failed and fell back into laziness.  The feeling is not very tangible at the moment, so I can't explain as well as I'd like to, but I have to admit, I do feel good about it.

Here is a quote I found while doing a search on the word "motivated" and I think it helps explain a bit what I am trying to say here:

While criticism or fear of punishment may restrain us from doing wrong, it does not make us wish to do right... The only effective discipline is self-discipline, motivated by the inner desire to act meritoriously in order to do well in one’s own eyes, according to one’s own values, so that one may feel good about oneself -- may “have a good conscience.”

There is something greatly appealing about wanting to accomplish a task or a goal for positive reasons, rather than for guilt or fear of punishment, or to avoid disdain, or for reasons of outside pressure or worry over someone else's expectations.

To put it in an even better perspective, if I add the wisdom from the following scripture passages to the above quote...

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.  (Hebrews 10:23)

... let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.  (Hebrews 12:1b)

... well, I just feel ready to leap into action, lol!  Where's that List of Doom?  Let me at it, I'll show it who's boss!

Comments

[hapendfro.livejournal.com]

AI am okay, a little sad, but okay. C and I have been talking through email and right now we both seem to agree it is for the best if we put our friendship to the side at least for now.

I don't think we hold any anomosity (sp) to each other it just not a good time to push the friendship issue. At least I have none I just can't force the issue And I don't think she wants to issue forced.

I love her and will miss her, but for now I think it is for the best.